you
my first love
and the only love i have

you
the one who take everything from me
taking my love
taking my trust
giving me such skeptical view

you
why it still very difficult to face you
why the guilty feeling still comes out when i talk to you
why it still that hard

If Enough

if what we call love is enough

if what we have is enough

if this relationship is enough

i will take your hand

put that ring

and say the swear

but those are not enough

Love is not enough

my dearest
in this country
love between you
and me
is nothing

it is only a sweet word
with a small "l"
decorated with flowers
in our mind
not in our reality
cause the reality
won't be that nice to us

my dearest
if i can pay
for a word we call happiness
and a word call principle
i will pay
to stand by you
to be with you
to see a couple of smile on your parents'
to see a couple of smile on my parents'
yes .........
if i can pay
i will pay
but will you?
will you pay for it?
will you pay for those things
the most important
will you pay for us?

Accidentally Jealous

there's something inside this heart
being sad when i hear you
call her
in any way
in any occasion

there's something inside this feel
being strange when i hear you
say something about her
say your memories with her

there's something inside this mind
being hurt when i hear you
telling a story about her
reminding everything about her

there's something inside me
being angry
of you and her

i think
i'm accidentally jealous on you

*sigh*

Manipulating Love

loving in lovely way
loving in lovely word
loving in a missing love heart
loving in manipulating

manipulating in mind
manipulating in heart
manipulating in body and soul
manipulating as loving
manipulating till there's nothing left inside

no thrust
no pinky path
no lovely room inside

there's only play
lovely play
play others
and play in selfishness

dont care of you
dont care of him
dont care of others

manipulating in everything given
till there's nothing
inside
outside
just looking a way to go back

if you want to leave

jika pada satu titik kamu ingin pergi
bukalah pintu itu
dan langkahkan kakimu keluar dari ruang itu
tapi jika kamu ingin pergi
katakan padaku
dan pergilah
tapi aku memohon padamu
saat aku menatap punggungmu
jangan pernah berbalik
jangan pernah kembali

satu dari sembilan hati

they said i have nine hearts
to love nine different person
as i love you
and others

but they never know
while one of my heart breaks
i should but the pieces
with the other eight